As the months and years ago on, the more unhappy I've become. Culture tells you to get a high paying job that you work until it kills you (either emotionally or physically), buy a huge house that you probably won't enjoy, drive an expensive car you really shouldn't afford, and taking credit out just to afford the things you really don't need and honestly cannot afford. Years ago I did get caught up in some of that, and the second I pulled away, everything fell apart. At first, I fought hard to get it back. That was when I started the gem tree business, and started seeing things in a new light.
It is really crazy to chase the dream of being an artist. It can be rough to make a living, for many reasons. I want to break those barriers and prove them all wrong! I always get told by people to get a real job! I ask, "why?". I feel very fulfilled spiritually, from my work. I want spiritual fulfillment, not a fat bank account! I get to be a part of the most amazing things in life- trees and rocks. My life is uncomplicated. Of course, i do have old debts to get out of, but I'm not creating any new ones. I'm living by my means. If I have a car I enjoy driving and it doesn't break down, great! I have a roof over my head I can afford without worry, great! I used to be all about the expensive clothes and status. Now, I'm actually very interested in making my own clothes. I bought a knitting machine earlier this year, in hopes I can learn how to knit sweaters. I will, once life settles down a little bit!
Our move to Rapid City will mean selling off the majority of the crap we own. It really is crap. We bought stuff without thought to purpose, if we really needed it, and if it was something that would help our future. Of course, I have boxes full of old foreign language books that I've been holding onto since I was a teenager. That was an old part of me that is very hard to let go of. But, every time I look at them, I am sad because I never took the opportunity to embrace the skill I had working with them.
There's a lot of work and planning ahead for us! I am really counting on each sale especially right now, to afford the move of our dreams! I cannot tell you how excited I am to head out to the Black Hills and go rock hunting! I will be finding my own bases, each with its own story. I am going to have to study HARD these next few months, so that I know exactly what I'm picking up! I have an idea of picking up state rocks from South Dakota and Colorado, and making special edition State Gem Trees from them. I'd love to see my work expand into gift shops and tourist boutiques across the West!
I don't know why I never pursued this life in the first place! I have fond memories of rock hunting in Colorado, and dragging my very heavy suitcases back full of my finds! While everyone was admiring the beautiful scenery around us, I was scanning the ground! The coolest thing I ever found was a small seashell, at my uncle's ranch in Elizabeth, CO. It was in the small rocks that lined the driveway. I wanted to know the story behind it! Why was it there? Did it come from long ago, during the ice age, or did a bird transport it from somewhere? I should have followed my interests into college! But now, I can study, with the help of nature and some really good books!
I will be writing more about the journey of us leaving everything behind, and starting a new minimalist life, out in the heart of Nature!